Guest Post by Yoga Buzz Teacher Trainee, Tamika Jackson.
I missed my third day of Yoga Teacher Training.
Yesterday, we were asked to sit with another participant and speak to how karma, defined as signals about our current path, or challenges on our path which speak to our dedication to a goal, has shown up in our lives in the past. Missing my third class, the class where I would define my dedication to my personal practice, thus making me a better person, and therefore a better teacher, with instruction on accountability – well, I guess is karma at its best. Karma exhibiting its presence and inclination to challenge me while in the throes of doing those things my ego finds valuable.
As well, I missed out on the fun outing to see a band! (Motown!) An opportunity to be with my Yoga Teacher Training cohorts outside of our classroom; a chance to just “be” with others with whom I am sharing an important experience. Needless to say, I am not too happy with karma at the moment, and challenges to my attempts to be better are always ones that threaten what I feel (though I have shown otherwise) is an already delicate existence on my part.
The positive side of karma saying, “Hello there girl! Whatcha gonna do about it?” I want to be there. I want and desire to be a part of the learning community that has begun this journey to self-development. I look forward to hearing how my diverse group of classmates digest and relate the material we are being given, and, I look forward to seeing how my perception of each one of them as whole and unique individuals will add to my own practice of yoga.
Thus, my training has begun. Already with the challenges; already with the benefits (I am physically moving better after two days of practice!) I have laughed in my class and been delighted there is so much I relate to. And while posing in savasana, I have allowed the tears to roll because 1) I made it through the challenge of my practice 2) I am proud of the care I give myself and how it shows up and 3) I am in process. We are all in process.
May the practice of your process bring forward positive outcomes.